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<title>Hear some mixes here</title>
<description>This online tool, projectplaylist, lets you piece together a streaming playlist from mp3s that are out there on the web already. I don&apos;t know how legal it is. On the one hand, it&apos;s playing copyrighted material. On the other hand, it&apos;s using files that others have already put out there for public playing. I&apos;m not sure, but until I get myself a real internet radio station again, here are a few mixes. But, a big caveat: I have to confine myself to stuff I can find on other people&apos;s sites. So none of these are the mixes I would have done if I had my own collection available. That will come soon enough... dj prose &amp;#035;198 eclectic mix typical of my style - based in downtempo electronic, trip hop, ambient, but with diversions into post-rock, exotica, acid jazz, and whatever...</description>
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<title>How I got here</title>
<description>(The following was my contribution to an essay in the St. Ignatius Loyola newsletter.) I&apos;ve been a spiritual seeker all my life. Raised atheist by ex-Mormons, I journeyed through Quakerism and Buddhism, and Centering Prayer acquainted me with Catholic monasticism, which I explored but abandoned. Last year, grace led me into a new close friendship with someone who embodies loving Catholicism. Our rich conversations about spiritual matters and my discovery of St. Augustine&apos;s writings helped me see the Church and a life of faith in an entirely new way. She guided me to St. Ignatius and as I sat near the back that first Sunday, though I had yet to understand the mysteries of the Trinity and Eucharist, the relevance of objects all around me -- our amazing RCIA program would later fill those in -- the moment the plainchant...</description>
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<pubDate>Sat, 14 Apr 2007 21:41:45 -0500</pubDate>
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<title>Last Temptation</title>
<description>So I&apos;m sitting in Saint Patrick&apos;s Cathedral on the first Sunday of Lent, preparing to go up, along with every other person in the New York metro area being baptized Catholic this Easter, one by one, to sign our names in the book and transition from being &quot;catechumens&quot; to being &quot;members of the elect.&quot; I&apos;m sitting there in my suit and tie, overwhelmed by the number of people and the diversity of the crowd and the beauty of the moment. But I&apos;m also steeling myself as I have done at various stages along this nearly year-long path in anticipation that THIS Catholic situation will somehow offend my morals or beliefs. I&apos;m assuming this because I&apos;m outside of the cozy liberal enclave of the Jesuits, out in the messy mainstream Catholic world. I&apos;m assuming this because a lot of the catechumens...</description>
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<pubDate>Mon, 26 Feb 2007 21:38:18 -0500</pubDate>
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<title>What Celebrity Could Be Your Twin!?</title>
<description><![CDATA[<img src="http://images.quizfarm.com/1109636085a.jpg" align="right"> You scored as <b>Ashlee Simpson</b>. <br>

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<pubDate>Sun, 05 Feb 2006 14:09:17 -0500</pubDate>
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<title>Which Rocky Horror Picture Show character are you?</title>
<description><![CDATA[So typical! What other character could I be? As usual I'm identified with the same person I'm attracted to! (BTW, for anyone wondering, I saw Rocky Horror 33 times at midnight shows. I've watched the video a few times since, but that doesn't count.)

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<pubDate>Sun, 24 Jul 2005 13:17:09 -0500</pubDate>
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<title>Saint Marks Pl. in the Spring</title>
<description><![CDATA[<p>Mostly I love seasons, nature, cycles, and this is where I live so this is where I'm experiencing that. But I guess &mdash; in the snow series and this one &mdash; I'm also looking at the juxtaposition of nature with ultra-urban culture. (That sound like an artist explaining their work. Ick. These are just snapshots. 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<pubDate>Tue, 19 Apr 2005 12:33:32 -0500</pubDate>
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<title>Shred what?</title>
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Proof that you can make a business of anything. The bigger question: What were they doing on St. Marks, a few miles from anything corporate? My guess is a paranoid consipracy theorist on my block decided mass shredding had to happen immediately.]]></description>
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<pubDate>Sat, 02 Apr 2005 18:08:57 -0500</pubDate>
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<title>Which Buffy The Vampire Slayer Character Are You Most Like!?</title>
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I wish it said I was Buffy, but this is right:
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<table border='0' cellpadding='5' cellspacing='0' width='600'><tr><td><img src='http://images.quizfarm.com/1106938158willow.jpg'></td><td> You scored as <b>Willow Rosenberg</b>. You are a very smart individual. Though, like everyone else, you've made mistakes. You've changed over the last few years, so have a lot of things in your life, but you've got great friends who love you and are there for you through anything.<br><br><table border='0' width='300' cellspacing='0' cellpadding='0'><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Willow Rosenberg</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='71' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>71%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Dawn Summers</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='67' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>67%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Rupert Giles</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='63' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>63%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Buffy Summers</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='58' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>58%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Xander Harris</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='50' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>50%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Spike</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='50' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>50%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Tara Maclay</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='46' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>46%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Anya</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='42' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>42%</font></td></tr></td></tr></table><br><a href='http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=4215'>Which Buffy The Vampire Slayer Character Are You Most Like!?</a><br><font face='Arial' size='1'>created with <a href='http://quizfarm.com'>QuizFarm.com</a></font></table>]]></description>
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<pubDate>Fri, 18 Feb 2005 11:00:33 -0500</pubDate>
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<description>Last week in NYC we had a blizzard with a foot of snow, single-digit temperatures and 50mph winds. It&apos;s funny. In Maine, that would be unexceptional, but down here it&apos;s just shy of the apocalypse. It&apos;s like when I was growing up in NY and would laugh when Southerners had freezing weather and an inch of snow and everything shut down and cars were sliding off the roads left and right. Now, having lived through a half dozen winters in Midcoast Maine, I watch fellow New Yorkers prepare for storms and cold with bemusement. Ya call this weather?! Sheesh. Also their understanding of cold weather dress is so uninformed. Every time I go out in sub-freezing weather here at least one if not several people say something about my being underdressed, when I&apos;m the warmest one there. They all have...</description>
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<pubDate>Sat, 29 Jan 2005 12:27:06 -0500</pubDate>
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<title>What Element Are You?</title>
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  <font color="#000000"> A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted 
  and serious. That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also 
  are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily. 
  You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others. 
  You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around 
  waves. You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little 
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<pubDate>Sat, 29 Jan 2005 12:23:12 -0500</pubDate>
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<title>Could You Be a Simpson?</title>
<description><![CDATA[Like Ashlee, you prefer punk rock to polished pop and you've been known to wanna &quot;la-la&quot; from time to time. Like Jessica, your sense of humor makes everyone smile but you don't need your mom to help you do your laundry; you're perfectly capable of handling that on your own, thank you very much. Fluffy puppies in Louis Vuitton carriers probably aren't your thing either. A bull dog is way more your style. You could definitely hang with the Simpsons but overall, their family isn't the best fit for you. How about the Osbourne family? You'd have way more fun throwing hams (and curse words) with Sharon than you would singing carols with Nick and Jessica on their next Christmas special.

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<pubDate>Thu, 27 Jan 2005 13:03:16 -0500</pubDate>
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<title>Saint Marks Place in the Snow</title>
<description><![CDATA[I always think it's cool when New York has a blizzard. People walk in the street, things slow down, people seem festive. 

When I left earlier, around 6, the snow was falling hard, cars were slipping around -- it was cool, and I didn't have my camera. Later we were tromping around the Upper East Side throwing snowballs at each other and I didn't have my camera. Well, I took some when I finally got home at about 1am. The snow had calmed down, but it was still pretty. 

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<pubDate>Sun, 23 Jan 2005 03:03:10 -0500</pubDate>
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<title><![CDATA[CBS &amp; NBC say opposing intolerance is &quot;too controversial&quot;]]></title>
<description>A new TV ad campaign by the United Church of Christ (including the Congregationalists) shows a conservative church with a velvet rope and bouncers turning away anyone who is gay, non-white or weird looking. The ad says, &quot;Jesus didn&apos;t turn people away. Neither do we. No matter who you are, or where you are on life&apos;s journey, you are welcome here.&quot; CBS and NBC have refused to air the ads. &quot;Because this commercial touches on the exclusion of gay couples and other minority groups by other individuals and organizations,&quot; says CBS, &quot;and the fact the Executive Branch has recently proposed a Constitutional Amendment to define marriage as a union between a man and a woman, this spot is unacceptable for broadcast on the [CBS and UPN] networks.&quot; NBC, home of Will &amp; Grace and Queer Eye, just said it was...</description>
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<pubDate>Mon, 06 Dec 2004 18:22:43 -0500</pubDate>
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<title>Holiday season</title>
<description>As I talk to friends and read blog entries about trips to visit family for Thanksgiving, and decompress from the visit I just had from my ex-wife on her own way to a Thanksgiving feast with her new partner&apos;s family, I&apos;m struck by the fact that while I feel melancholy, it&apos;s not over my family being gone, it&apos;s over not having a partner to share the holidays with. 

I&apos;m a sentimental ninny -- I will go on a Christmas window outing every year, decorate a tree, see Handel&apos;s Messiah, and generally enjoy strolling around my East Village neighborhood streets where trees and lampposts are strewn with strings of little white lights and boutique after boutique offers the perfect gift for that hard-to-get-a-gift-for friend. 

The nip in the air, the smell of soup, fogged windows from warm bodies inside: all put a smile on my face. For me, the holiday season never led to suicidal states. It was always a Good month, annoyingly interrupted by a few one-day family events. Those days could be horrific, but I didn&apos;t generally blame the season for them. 

 Family holidays have faded into background memory. My family of semi-choice is more fun. But this year, despite my life being good, and despite its being the fourth holiday season in a row that I&apos;m single, it feels different. I think the fact that my life is good may be the reason my singleness is more problematic. These last few years, I have given the holidays far less recognition -- it&apos;s just not the same to go window watching or see a concert without a partner. This year for the first time, I&apos;m feeling not OK with that dearth in my life. At the same time, there&apos;s a bittersweet taste to it -- I like that I&apos;m feeling something, even if it&apos;s unsatisfying. I think that&apos;s a good sign.

-- Philip F. Rose 2004</description>
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<pubDate>Wed, 24 Nov 2004 14:00:49 -0500</pubDate>
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<pubDate>Sat, 20 Nov 2004 02:05:25 -0500</pubDate>
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